#can we just talk #can we just talk about how i have no idea what’s going to happen to john when sherlock comes back #i’ve been trying to put myself into his shoes and think about how i react and just #god #it’d be like two sides of your heart are trying to strangle each other #because on the one side this person that you love with everything in you isn’t really gone #he’s there and he’s real and you didn’t have to say goodbye #it wasn’t the end #but this other part of you #this dark hurt shaking part is just so utterly broken #because how do you do that to someone you love #how do you walk away for three years #how do you let them think the worst #how do you watch them be broken and ripped apart #and get their fucking limp back god #i just #it hurts too much to think about
